..been there, done that.

Sometimes it is so lame to be a daydreamer. In reality, nothing has changed. Because things are going to change/happen with our own pure effort. In the end, frust sendiri. I know how it feels. Been there, done that. But secretly you're praying and hoping one day it will become reality though you know the percentage for it to happen macam langit dengan bumi.

But I learnt from law of attraction, they said nothing is impossible. Wait.." Allah ada sebab kenapa Dia tak akan bagi apa yang kita nak, tapi Dia akan bagi apa yang kita perlu.." Which is true.

And there are certain cases whereby just a little things make you trigger to change for the better. Not a perfectionist but deep down still searching what is missing inside you. Though countless of times you've tried to be a better one, still.. no changes. Or maybe just for a day or two. Next day? Oh I'm back with my lifetime routine all over again. Bummer!

Which is why, based on my observations and experiments I found distractions and social influences play a major part of it. Pendirian kena teguh and when it is not teguh..nothing will change. Or maybe you have your do have a stand, but due to your soft kind heart you aren't able to say a word or do an act because you're afraid of losing something that you're not sure of. Trust me, been there done that. Wait.. still am.

Le sigh.

It sucks to know it is totally wrong to do such act but the fact is you can't do anything to stop it. Wait, I can. It just that I'm afraid. No I'm a coward I must say. Some people may have said:

"takpe muda lagi, you have a lot more time to change"

"takpe it just for a day, no more for tomorrow"

The word takpe may destroy everything. Because takpe is actually comforting yourself just for maybe a minute or a day. And because of takpe, you gain more sins than pahala. See? again, le sigh. You can't promise yourself to transform to be a better person in a day or even a year but once you start drowning to the old you, it's hard to start back from what you have started to change for the better path.

Jom kita sama-sama doa!